Memories, they can be images you have in your head forever and start smilling everytime you see them.
It can be someone you love smilling at you with her sparkling eyes or a person you have tensions with looking at you as if she was going to murder you. It can also be the special memory of you hugging the person-you-have-tensions-with, both of you lauging.
It can be mountains you wish you could see forever and that remains in your mind with the sensation to belong to a new indestructible clan.
It can be a sound screamed in your ears that will haunt you forever. It can be a laugh or a whisper.
It can be a music you were hearing and always screaming proudly "it's our song".
Smells you can smell again in your nose if you concentrate enough. The smell of a skin, green grass in the morning, a dinner all ready for you, washing liquid, the chewing-gums we shared, a teacher's perfume..
They can be feelings that make your heart beat harder. The sun warming your face through the window of a grey car, the warmth of a body, an intense hug, the softness of a sweater, the coolness of a ski station in summer, a first go to the beach too soon to suntan, your head under alcohol feeling like coton..
They can be the things that makes you happy everyday and someday apear to be as sharpe as a knife and make you bleed so much that you wanna die. You can accept them or reject them. You can't get off them. You wanna clean your head but you forget to save things that are necessary to move on and so you're trapped and head in the hands you only see darkness..
But if somenight you have the chance to get your head out of the water you realise that these are more good than bad and that you were enjoying your life. So your heart will reclain a little of its former purity and peacefully you will recollect the memories you need to make things right.
